Mikeoooh

How today at lunch, while Anissa, Imani, Izzy, and Benji were just goofing around. Me and Becky were just sitting there, and then we started having a pretty good talk she was kinda struggling with something and I hope I helped a little bit even though I didn’t really give her advice it always helps to at least have someone there to listen. She knew something was on my mind, which there is and she told me I could talk to her about it, but its kinda private so I didn’t tell her, but it still is nice to know even the least people I would expect are there to just listen and share :b Kinda cheesy but it made me happy :b , All in all today was a decent day. I just gotta finish up my homework and hopefully I get some carne asada fries tomorrow!.

I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life. Who hasn’t? Really. But I also know that the mistakes I was making were continuous and back to back. Last year was really brutal, I messed up a lot. I was really confused a lot and gave into temptation. I’m not proud of anything I did. However, I can’t lie and say it didn’t teach me a lesson, because it did and it helped me find myself. In the worst of times for me last year, I had no one to turn to I was so isolated after I finally got control of myself. I felt so alone, but there was always someone there for me. God really did save me, I was a mess. He really did just basically tell me I had to get my life back on track. God never left my side, I just felt so alone because I was lost. Little by little I was getting better. I stopped all my old ways, I even drifted apart from some people who could possibly influence me. I really knew I needed to change and I have. I mean some people might not even notice it because I didn’t even talk about it to anyone. But me who sees myself everyday, as the weeks and months went by I really did see a difference. And I’m just so thankful for God to help me, I know I’m not perfect. NO ONE is, but looking back at how I was last summer and how I am now, I’m so thankful. Because I see I changed for the better, I still have things to improve on and I know I’ll get there soon. I really am tired of being a hypocrite though, I say one thing and do another. I’m ready to change that though. I’ve always been in love with the idea of being in love with someone. So I always would put myself out there. And yeah I have had feelings for people, sometimes mutual feelings. But the problem with that was that, thats all they were was just feelings. Eventually those “feelings” I had just weren’t there anymore. I really didn’t like that, but I realize its only because I always rush things. That never gets me anywhere. I’m not going to lie though, all the people who I’ve had in my life that were more than just friends, they’re amazing. I mean some of them I don’t talk to anymore but for the most part I always try to keep it as friends, but it takes time. So if it means me having to take it slow with the next person whoever it may be, for things to make it work then by all means i’m doing it!. And thats another thing!, I’m not rushing that either I’m still so young , and its dumb for me to rush into a relationship right now. I don’t NEED one. So I am finally going to wait for that also, and when it does come on its own, I’ll take it slow and start off as friends with whoever it will be, and take it from there, and just let God handle that and when it happens it’ll happen. But im in no rush, and I finally came up with a good plan. I am going to focus on important things in my life, my Family, my Friends, School, and God. I have everything I could ever possibly need in my life right now, and I’ve been so worried and stressed about less important things to realize how good I have it and to really enjoy my life and those who are apart of it, like my family my friends and God. I am ready to buckle down, to focus on my grades, and be thankful I made it into Health Academy for next year to prepare me for my future. To spend time with my family that I love so much, to enjoy the moments I share with them and with my friends who are always there for me. And to thank God for blessing me with all that I have, and to build up my relationship with God. I am ready for a better change, to live my life, to love life and to savor it. I just encourage everyone who is struggling or not, to really look at everything you have in your life, or who you have in your life and to thank God. To really be happy, and “live your life to the fullest”. Most people misinterpret that saying and think it means to go get wasted or go do drugs or steal or just be dumb. And thats NOT what it means at all. To me living your life to the fullest means, to cherish life, to be thankful for having people who love you who truly love you for who you are, to go learn things and to make something out of your life, to thank God for what you have and not be upset for what you don’t have. To be happy you have a roof over your head, and a family who cares for you. For the GOOD friends you have that wont pressure you into doing something you KNOW is wrong, or something you don’t want to do. To give thanks to God for blessing you and everyone. Thats what I think “living your life to the fullest” means. I know I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life, but I’m finally deciding to make up for it all to live my life for God. To be thankful for everything he has blessed me with. To be a better person, to follow the path that he has made for me. God has a plan for every single one of us and I encourage everyone to understand that, and to really show an effort to follow it. Sorry for just randomly basically preaching right now, just thought I’d share :b

andrei1amazing:

- David Choi